It's going to be ok, right?

Today I looked at the boy all stretched out on the couch (in full recovery mode from last night's events!) and I said, "man, next week is my last full week of work."

"How does that feel?" - he said
"Really weird" - me - "Not scared or sad, just really weird"
"It's pretty heavy" - the boy, confirming my feelings, and making me feel not alone
"yeah.  shoooosh" - me, heavy sighs

It's weird alright.   I'm still not stressed out by it, I'm not scared, I'm not worried.   I'm sort of dropping into this old fog I used to be in.    Not sure what direction I really want to go in, not sure I want to think about it.   One thing I am sure about is that I want to be tanner.    See?  Not really thinking much about the situation.

Comments

[kiki]

i support tanner 100 percent

[J S]

I went through that last year, and I had the same feelings. I went on vacation, my friend was asking me why I went out spending money, I was like this is what I have to do... Got tan and had a good time. Another friend that I met while on vacation said, hey it will be alright, it will all come back to you even better than before.
Good luck and enjoy the break.