In the past year or so I've been told how there are so many things I do wrong. The way I talk, dress, have my hair, write, and smile (as in, not fakely holding it long enough I guess). I've altered a few things to get people to shut up and stop making me constantly on a day to day basis feel like a complete failure at life and work. Some of the things I altered because I'm sure it wouldn't hurt to polish it up a little. I haven't changed how I treat people, how I talk to people. That doesn't mean I'm a sweet littl e muffin to everyone. No, what it means is that I'm genuine. If I am irritated with someone, they know it. If someone is being an asshole, they don't deserve to be treated to smiles and favors. And it has worked. And it will continue working. I am able to hold my head up high and say that I have treated people in a way that I do not regret. But for a few instances, I wouldn't change my behavior or attitude towards anyone in the past year and a half. And I can say that because the people who support me, the people who are being honest with me and holding me up right now are quality. They are amazing, they are impressive, they are trustworthy, and most of all they are genuine.
In a tough spot right now I am wet in the eyes happy to say I am touched by my people. I am moved and honored to know them. I can trust and be trusted.
And I can pick and choose, and that feels magnificent.
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